Changes

A change isn’t the proper word to draw the complete picture of my current situation. Changes, is. It was a day I made up my mind to stay until I realize my existence in the cubical is redundant unless I make a change. Why not change? A frequent question being asked by others. There is something I want to hold on and this is it. It may sound stubborn or seem like a doltish act, regret is nowhere to be found. Utterly touched by the unconditional love and whole support from my beloved ones.

Here I thank you and you.

Obsession

Spotted this pair of lovely cage wedges some time ago.

Love at first sight.

Didn’t buy it because it costs quite a fortune looking at how much I earn per month.

Should I?

Couldn’t get it off my mind. So addictive~

It would be a perfect match for any outfit.

I WANT!!!

Should I? Should I? Should I?

x.x

Makcik & Ah moi

A conversation with Makcik nearby the morning market.

Makcik: Ah moi~

Me: (smiles)

Makcik: Nak apa ah moi? (wanted to take paper wrapper)

Me: Guna kotak…

Makcik: Ok.

When she is about to scoop ikan bilis…

Me: Itu tak mau.

When Makcik pointed to the cucumber…

Me: Tak mau jugak…(smiles)

Makcik: Ah moi tak suka makan sayur ha?

Me pointed at the “si ham”.

Makcik: Ok si ham ya. Nak apa lagi?

Me: (Point at fried egg)

After that she took a scoop of nasi lemak sambal for me.

Me: Nak banyak sikit.

Makcik: Ah moi pandai makan pedas ha…

Me: Ya, saya suka makan pedas.

Makcik: Ah moi kamu tau tak, makan pedas kuat makan…makcik jugak suka makan pedas…

Referring to her figure. Plump.

So, does that mean my liking for hot and spicy had caused my weight gained all these while because pandai makan pedas kuat makan!

心

慢慢地，变贪心。

蓝，它不再是蓝。

Things happened

Mood swing happens especially that time of the month. Easily.

Got the shocking news of a friend injured badly in a bus accident on the way back from KL-PG. According to friends, he had 2 times brain surgery and he is under observation in Penang GH’s icu now. Stay strong my friend. We still have so many years of gathering to attend together. Your time is not up yet.

God bless you.

Had a mentally challenged day. Boss approved my board and so I proceeded. This afternoon finally he had time to check up the stuff and he told me I did wrong. Almost break down. The urge of crying just crept into my nerves. Got control of it though. Hope I didn’t scare the awesome fella(someone cool!) haha because he was the first one approached me after I talked to my boss. It was an unintentional mood swing thing.

Anyhow, I have decided to quit my very first job and I did. Serving one month notice now. I think that this isn’t the right place for me.

The newly met people changed my mind. Even my sis questioned about my sudden decision. I was never someone with big dreams. Abrupt as it may seem, it took me two weeks to figure it out. For what had happened, I hear things that show me things that I did not realize. Most of them of course are wonderful things I must say. Thankfully.

Staying away from home, without any close friends or not-so-close friends, life isn’t treating me bad. March has taught me well. I maps googled places that I needa go and drove there all alone. I met new people. I learnt new stuff for AfterEffects from an awesome fella. And again, nothing can beat the feeling of being at home after staying away from home for some time.

Apparently, I am still uncertain about what I REALLY WANT but I think I have figured it out some part of it.

Things happen.

sweet

Fruit indulgence! One word- SATISFACTION. Never had this much fruits for 3 weeks!!

Back at home, my dear papa buy and cut fruits for us everyday. We eat all kind of fruits! In KL, I hafta buy and cut the fruits myself. BUT I barely do that because I am lazy and I don’t know how to choose the good ones when I shop in Jusco. Now, I miss my papa.

(of course I miss everyone back at home! hee)

Papa, THANK YOU VERY MUCHIE~

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and THANK YOU! You know who you are.

🙂

fading blues

On the 2nd week of working life, everything seems pretty good. Scratch the part I went early on the first day ended up waiting for more than 90minutes for the office’s door. Other than that, it isn’t as bad as I thought though I think the miserable is starting to kick in. People are nice and friendly. Most of the colleagues are guys, only 6 females including me over 30 plus walking beings.

Today the big boss assigned me to do a mograph. It will be part of the animation which I am quite excited about it. BUT I am to finish the task, s-o-l-o. To be completed in  2 weeks, the most 2.5 weeks. The stress level is definitely rising. Was kinda clueless. Still, partially clueless. Spare me please! Go Go Go!

I need fruits to ease my constipation 😦

choonxuan blues

Pregnant mothers have baby blues after give birth to new child.

I have choonxuan blues after getting a job.

I should smile more like the me in the photo.

The Blind Side

My every afternoon must-do-thing, to watch a movie.

Today’s pick is The Blind Side. Have always wanted to watch it ever since the trailer is shown online. Sandra Bullock was the reason why it’s on my must-watch-list.But then, it was more than just Sandra Bullock. She carried out the character well, and so did everyone else in the film.

The Blind Side, an awe-inspiring film of the year. It’s based on a true story features about Micheal Oher, the offensive lineman who play football for Baltimore Ravens of National Football League. This is how the plot goes: Young Big Mike was sorta homeless and by chance he got into a Christian school. Leigh Anne Tuohy, a white female with a great heart takes him in as a son. She helps him out in almost everything. She gives him a home he never had, proper education, warm clothing and food. Big Mike was being questioned when Leigh Anne told her friends about this color boy. However, Leigh Anne believes Big Mike and Big Mike believes in her. He told Leigh Anne he will always watch her back and protect the family…

Yada yada I am not good in story telling. Of course some unfortunate events happened in between. Watch it yourself. Note that it’s not entirely about football, it’s all about family and love. Family does not restricted by blood relations or color or religion.

The film makes me think. I am sure it will make whoever watches it put themselves into deep thoughts too. When you see things that you don’t usually see, and how lucky you are to be where you at, you should feel fortunate that you are not one of those ill-fated people. Once in a while, we should look at the blind side, which are things that we barely can see. Look into it, you might see things in a whole new perspective.

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22

me thinks:

21 was freedom, 22 means nothing. Nothing because I am now not a student anymore, I have to earn my own cash and craft my dream. It’s time.

happy birthday to myself.

=)